Lady Gaga Gets Candid About Her Struggle With Insecurities - Says She Often Feels 'Ugly' And 'Lonely'
Even celebrities deal with insecurities sometimes. In fact, knowing how they’re always in the spotlight and under scrutiny, they might struggle with self-doubt even more than the rest of us.
During a brand new interview for the Los Angeles Times, Lady Gaga opened up about self-confidence while discussing her role in A Star Is Born - Bradley Cooper’s directorial debut film.
‘It's very lonely being a performer. There is a certain loneliness I feel, anyway—that I am the only one that does what I do. So, it feels like no one understands. And the urge to use is because you're searching for a way to quell the pain. When I first started to perform around the country in nightclubs, there was stuff everywhere, but I had already partied when I was younger, so I did not dabble. I was able to avoid it 'cause I did it when I was a kid,’ she tells the outlet.
In the movie, Gaga plays Ally, a struggling songstress that is guided by an already established singer named Jackson Maine and played by Cooper.
Through her role, Lady Gaga tapped into her thoughts and feelings that were deeply buried before at the request of the director who really wanted to see vulnerability from her.
When she did a screen test for the role because people '‘don’t’ really know what I look like,’ Lady Gaga showed up with makeup on which Cooper then asked her to take off.
‘It put me right in the place I needed to be, because when my character talks about how ugly she feels—that was real. I'm so insecure. I like to preach, but I don’t always practice what I preach,’ the star explained.
There are also some important differences between her and Ally.
‘When we meet Ally, she has given up on herself. And that is very different from me. I just was not overwhelmed by the odds. The truth is, if we were not sitting here today and I had not sold as many records as I have, I would still be in a bar somewhere playing the piano and singing. It's just who I want to be. I was dragging my piano from dive bar to dive bar to play music. I was calling people, faking being my own manager to get gigs. I really believed in myself that I could do this and that I was not going to stop until I made it,’ Gaga shared.