On the latest Total Bellas episode, Nikki Bella and John Cena are shown celebrating their engagement, but she is starting to have doubts. Despite having cold feet, Nikki is shopping for wedding dresses with some of her close pals and family members.
Sadly, as you may be aware, the day turned from something joyful to a complete drama.
‘I thought you are supposed to be excited about this, like when you watch movies and all you can think is, ‘Oh my gosh break out the champagne!’ For me, I am just like, ‘Okay let’s make this quick.’ I don’t know. There’s just something that isn’t feeling right.’
As the engagement party approaches, John tries his best to calm her down, but Nikki is still very preoccupied with her own thoughts.
‘So the engagement party’s here. I feel so overwhelmed. I honestly feel like I am about to have an anxiety attack. I feel like I am on this roller coaster of emotions and I feel like I am going to explode. It’s just all too much for me,’ she shared.
Even when her twin sister Brie announced her pregnancy, things didn’t get any better for Nikki.
‘Lauren and JJ have a big announcement. Well, we wanted this to just be about Nicole and John today. We are pregnant with baby number two!’ she and her husband announced.
Although it was definitely not what she needed to hear that day, it did help a lot put her feelings into perspective.
‘I just know deep down I want a baby…I want to be a mom. I feel like I cannot live the rest of my life not having one,’ Nikki revealed.
But would John Cena who did not want any children compromise?
‘I don’t even know how to start except, I guess just like for some reason since Birdie’s been born and I have spent a lot of time with Birdie, it has just brought up these feelings of really wanting to be a mom. I do not know if I would regret it later on in life if I wasn’t,’ the distraught woman told her fiance.
She went on: ‘I love you so much and feel that has always been worth sacrificing for. I think just because we’re getting married and everything is so permanent. Not that it’s made me feel suffocated, but it has given me a bit of anxiety knowing that okay, the day 5/5 comes, like, that is it. The mom thing is done.’
John was very understanding: ‘I would never force you to not be a mom. I really want to say it is a surprise, but I even told you so many times it’d happen. I am not sure we should go through with this.’
We all already knew it was over between the two but seeing it happen right before our eyes is just so heartbreaking!