It has been nearly a decade since music star and actress Fantasia was admitted to a medical institution, where she battled for her life after trying to commit suicide and taking an enormous amount of aspirin and sleeping pills.
The singer, who gained much fame for being the winner of the third season of the reality series American Idol back in 2004, opened up and talked about the experience of her suicide attempt and what drove her to it during an episode of Behind the Music,which aired in 2010.
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I wish the younger me could have just captured a small glimpse of the woman that I’ve become today, she would have been more patient with her process and smelled more of the flowers she received along the way. God you are so good and I’m honored to be your Chosen Vessel! He knows my name- Fantasia Taylor. Thank You @JessicaRich you saved the day Pretty Lady
Back then, the diva explained she did not have any fight in her and did not care about anything.
Fantasia also confessed she wanted to be over with her life, go to sleep, and find peace.
The R&B diva admitted that she looked in the mirror before taking all of the pills from the bottle she was holding, and she was perfectly aware of what she was doing at the time.
However, life has undoubtedly improved for Fantasia, and her suicidal thoughts are a thing of the past now.
Sitting down on Good Morning America with Robin Roberts, she explained: “I think everybody feels like I tried to harm myself over a man, but you know I’ve been in a lot of bad relationships. I think that had somewhat to do with it because it was so heavy, it was brand new information, I was already going through so much. But I think it was just six years of everything, of me holding all that stuff on the inside and not letting it out…I got very, very tired. When I woke up, I figured out, ‘Oh god, this is going to be more drama.”
While appearing on The Real, the singer revealed: “When I tried to just get away from the world. Some would say, ‘commit suicide.’ I didn’t think it was me trying to kill myself. I just wanted to be away from all the noise. If I could do that over, I would.”
In the recent interview during an episode of “The Real,” the star was asked if there were something she would change if given the opportunity.
According to Fantasia, trying to end her life was the thing she would do over if it were possible.
Currently, the singer is the proud mother of two children, a teenager, and a boy, and in 2015, she married businessman Kendall Taylor.
Besides her sixth studio album, Sketchbook, hitting the stores n the upcoming weeks, Fantasia is also participating in a tour with colleagues Robin Thicke, Tank, and The Bonfyre.