Country singer, Naomi Judd took a break from the spotlight for a while but nobody knew what she was going through during that time.
The legend, now 70 years old, battled a severe case of depression for over three years. It was so bad that the singer even created a very detailed plan for her own suicide. Judd talks about her terrible struggle with the “demon” in her head in her new autobiography called “River of Time.”
In 2013, when she had been fighting depression for two years, the country singer decided that it was enough mental suffering and contemplated jumping off the Natchez Trace Parkway Bridge near her Nashville, Tennessee farm.
“I knew exactly how I was going to carry out my suicide. I would drive my car to the very center, the highest point, and in one swift motion open the car door and climb over the railing. I’d keep my focus on the beauty of the surrounding countryside, spread my arms out, and step off.”
“After the 155-foot drop to State Route 96 below, it would all be over, now and forever. I would be out of this relentless torment.”
If that was not enough planning on how to take her own life, the singer even had a plan B, and C in case her first idea failed. Pill overdose was another way to end it and she even hid one of her husband’s guns in the closet, waiting for the right moment to kill herself.
“I wanted to have options when I was certain I couldn’t go on one more day,” she added.
She would have done as well, it if she wouldn’t have been discovered by her husband while holding the gun she stole.
“I’m not going to leave you alone at all, anymore. Not until you get better,” Judd stated he said.
In a poetic turn of events, the woman changed her mind about suicide when her grandson, Elijah, expressed how upset he was seeing a stranger take their life by jumping off the same bridge she was planning to as well.
“I went into the bathroom to weep. The thought of my beloved grandson being the person who could possibly have to identify my mangled body was more than I could bear.”