Little People, Big World stars Jeremy and Audrey Roloff recently welcomed a baby daughter, Ember Jean, but life since giving birth hasn’t been easy for the new mom. Roloff says it hasn’t been “all lullabies and snuggles,” and her struggle has left her feeling like a failure.
Roloff opened up about her battle with postpartum depression in a recent Instagram post, and she says life has been hard since bringing her daughter home.
“The first 24 hours with Ember were bliss, but after that, it was as if I went back into labor again. I was well prepared for the pain and suffering that comes with childbirth, but I was not prepared for the pain and suffering that comes afterward,” confessed Roloff.
The reality star also shared her problems with mastitis, which is a painful breast tissue infection with flu-like symptoms. She says the pain during breastfeeding is similar to contractions, and she has also suffered from bruises, blisters, breast engorgement, and clogged ducts.
Roloff shared that the problems she has faced as a new mother have made her “frustrated” and “discouraged,” but she says she loves her daughter and it is all worth it.
Our little Ember is two weeks old today!? She's likes cuddling on our chests, swaying, and when her daddy sings to her. While I am overflowing with love for my daughter and husband, I won't sugar coat it… these past two weeks have been HARD. The first 24 hours with Ember were bliss, but after that it was as if I went back into labor again… I was well prepared for the pain and suffering that comes with childbirth, but I was not prepared for the pain and suffering that comes afterwards. I got all the things… the common "TMI" postpartum hurts, along with severe engorgement, too much milk, not enough milk, blisters, bruises, clogged ducts, and mastitis. I can't believe I'm saying this, but the pain that I've experienced while breast feeding has been comparable to unmedicated labor contractions. Inevitably, all of this has left me feeling like I am failing my baby, frustrated, discouraged, and heart ached. But even though the tearful sleepless nights persist, so will I. I will continue to pour myself out in sacrificial love for this baby girl who makes every hurt worth enduring. And not by my strength or striving, but in Christ alone. I've been humming the these lyrics while I nurse and pump through the nights, "Lord, I come, I confess, Bowing here I find my rest, Without You I fall apart, You're the One that guides my heart, Lord I need you oh I need you, Every hour I need you, My one defense, my righteousness, Oh God, how I need you…" Motherhood is already refining me so much and I am blessed. #journeyofjerandauj #emberroloff pc: @juliagreenphotography
After being so honest about her life as a first-time mom, over 3,000 people commented with messages of love and support, telling her what she is experiencing is “no joke” and reassured her that things would get better.
Roloff also enjoys the support of her husband. When Ember first arrived, Jeremy Roloff told Us Weekly that after seeing his wife go through a natural childbirth, he had a “renewed appreciation for her strength.”
Besides her postpartum post, Roloff and her husband have decided to avoid social media for the most part while adjusting to life as new parents, which is a change of pace for the couple.
In addition to announcing their pregnancy and the sex of their baby via Instagram, YouTube, and their blog, they also tracked Audrey Roloff’s growing baby bump. They are absent because they are resting and enjoying the moment.
However, the new dad did make a recent post on Instagram after Roloff Farms opened for pumpkin season. It was the first day he was away from his wife and daughter, and he shared how much he missed them.
Our precious baby girl – Ember Jean Roloff – is finally here!!! 7.13 lbs 20.25" long and born on September 10th. Wow. Natural labor was the hardest thing I've ever done, but holding our baby for the first time was undeniably the most empowering and rewarding moment of my life. Of course, I wrote "always more" on my hand when I went into labor, but never have these words carried more meaning. The whole time I just kept reminding myself of the MORE that was within me through Christ – that I could keep enduring, surrendering, trusting, and pushing more and more because of Christ's strength within me. The second she was out of my belly and into my arms, the tears of pain ceased, and Jeremy and I looked at our daughter and each other with tears of uncontainable joy. We are in complete awe of the miracle of life, and feeling so blessed to be entrusted with such a beautiful daughter. Sweet little Ember, may you always be a light in the darkness, glowing in all you do, enduring, feirce, and hard to extinguish;) May you always believe in the more that is within you, and when stoked and kindled by your Creator – may you be able to burn and glow even MORE than you ever could on you own ? We love you so much Ember Jean Roloff. Thank you for making us "mom and dad" 😉 ?pc: @juliagreenphotography #journeyofjerandauj #emberroloff #alwaysmore
Meanwhile, Matt Roloff, Ember’s grandpa, posted a photo of himself standing next to a painted, wooden stork with his granddaughter’s name on it.
Little People, Big World returns to TLC this fall with new episodes.