Fans totally got emotional seeing the beloved characters tie the knot but they weren’t the only ones! As you may know already the season 11 finale of The Big Bang Theory was a very touching episode as Sheldon and Amy got married!
Now, the actress who plays Amy, Mayim Bialik took to her website to share her struggles and feelings she had while shooting the wedding scene.
Apparently, it stirred some memories of her real-life marriage which eventually failed, ending in divorce.
Bialik was married to Michael Stone from 2003 to 2012, and it is pretty clear that she is still affected by the breakup.
That being said, wearing Amy’s wedding dress made her quite uncomfortable.
‘As a divorced woman, it is hard to revisit that moment and those decisions. It is still painful to think about putting on the dress you take vows in, the dress that’s in every picture of the perfect happy life you think you’ll have when you are young and getting married,’ she wrote in her blog post.
‘I did not feel beautiful. Because this is real life. I’d started losing weight a few months ago. Why? Because I needed to,’ she went on, confessing that she was even scared to read the script due to all of her expectations.
The actress explained that she started to drop some pounds prior to struggling with health problems which eventually put her working out routine on pause for an entire month.
‘And so, I gained weight back. I wanted to keep losing. And instead, I am back to not being comfortable. I felt ashamed. I felt like maybe the wardrobe ladies were looking at me like, ‘Oh, she tried to lose weight and maybe she did not have the willpower.’ They probably would never think that–it is my brain thinking that.’
‘But that is the truth. I did not feel my best. I felt crummy about it. Even though everyone said I looked beautiful, I did not feel completely beautiful.’
Bialik also talked about the scene itself, saying: ‘It’s emotional to tell someone you love them even when you are acting. The first time I read those lines, I got emotional for real. Because it’s my job to embody this character and to feel what she feels. She’s me, and I’m her, I suppose. I love Jim Parsons as my co-worker and friend. Although it is sometimes hard to keep a straight face saying such lovey-dovey things, there is no one I would rather say them to than Jim.’